Tonight we tested.  It was suppose to be an exciting night, a night I've looked forward to as I felt all these pregnancy symptoms.  Before Shawn arrived I had to pee, I held it as long as I could in hopes the concentration would be stronger.  I filled a cup so it was ready for when Shawn arrived with the pregnancy test.  Excitement!!

I dipped an OPK and waited.  The last few days the test line had been so strong, including this morning, with all the pregnancy symptoms I took this as a raise in HCG.  Today, surely the second line would be there for Shawn to see as he hovered over the test.

I watched the OPK and my heart dropped.  That second line, although still positive, wasn't as strong as it had been these past few days :(  My pregnancy symptoms hadn't been as viciously strong today or yesterday either, could it be that the HCG was going back down?  I worried.

Shawn arrived, he chose the test, and I dipped it for five seconds.  Set it down and waited.  Shawn watched, waiting, waiting.....waiting.

Nothing :(

I took it in to the bathroom and stood on the toilet, holding it up to the light.  I couldn't see the second line, no matter how many angles I turned it :(

We concluded that if the digital said "NO -" that we would go ahead and do one more insem, just in case the positive was ovulating [again].

Negative.

I handed Shawn his chinese teacup and he headed outside and did his part.  After being handed it I did mine, and hoped :(  At least we did all we could this cycle, although I was left so completely confused since everything was not clearly [visually] black and white in what was happening.

I don't hold too much hope this cycle, but I suppose I can't give up on all hope.  There's always a possibility.